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Well, hubby and I have let another weekend go by without planning our meals for the week and grocery shopping.  We seem to do it for one week, then limp through another week, then plan again.  Today’s food tally:  cereal w/blueberries and skim milk, 110 calorie diet drink, bbq pork sandwich and corn nuggets (little deep fried blobs of creamed corn; a specialty of the lunch place in my office complex), ordered in middle-eastern food for dinner–spanikopeta (sp?), chicken kabobs with rice, and, of course, a couple of glasses of wine.  I absolutely cannot lose weight unless I give up the wine.  Oh yeah, an order of tiramisu (sp?) too!  Friends are coming to visit on Friday through Monday and we always eat out a lot with these friends.  I think I better just forget about getting back on track until Tuesday of next week.

Kellyluck, thanks for writing.  I tried to reply yesterday, but the computer asked me to enter a code to prove I wasn’t a virus, but there was no code, just a dark background with muted colored shapes on it!!  Anyway, just struggling with whether or not I care enough about my weight and my health to continue to eat right and exercise.  I seem to be fighting against myself lately.

 Here is a rundown of my food today (no exercise).  No judgements; I have been pretty “good.”:

Cantelope, Banana Nut Crunch w/blueberries and skim milk,  salad with salmon (at a restaurant), low-cal Jello pudding snack, more cantelope, talapia, brown rice, asparagus, another low-fat pudding snack, two glasses of white wine. . .so far.  Seems to me I ate something else, but I can’t remember what.  Anyway, I’m just eating what I want.  I was going to get a crabcake and fries for lunch, but the salad and salmon appealed to me more once we were at the restaurant, and, I was too full for desert.  Maybe I’ll exercise tomorrow.

 Hope you all had good days!

Thanks for all the encouragement folks.  I have to do some thinking about why I am struggling so much now.  Or, maybe I need to give it a break for a few days.  Anyway, best to all of you on your journey.

I was just thinking that I would quit buddyslim even though I just started.  After two months of being committed to exercising and eating right and losing 13 lbs., in the last month I have been off track and tonight I had decided that I am really not with the program now and should just quit this until I get my mind back in the right place.  But, there is so much support here that now I’m not sure.  Maybe tomorrow will be different.  Thanks.

Exercise tonight?  My knees have been hurting me.  I am not a person who has chronic knee pain, but the other day my knee cried out in pain as I was getting into my car.  It’s been hurting ever since, especially when I get up after sitting or walk up the stairs.  I used my gazelle Sunday and Monday nights and walked on y treadmill for 30 minutes last night, at what is a pretty good pace for me.  Now I’m wondering if I should give my knee a rest or if I am just using this as an excuse not to exercise.  I suppose I could do crunches and some other floor exercises.  I guess it’s just an excuse.  And, today I was stressed at work, so I ate a Milky Way bar!

Yeah. . .today I succeeded with moderation.  We had pizza for dinner because we have failed to go to the grocery store and I had some red wine with it.  But, instead of my usual 3 pieces and 3 glasses of wine, I only had 2 of each!  Believe me, this is progress.  I also used my gazelle a bit while watching my soap–not that much, but better than sitting!

Some good news and some bad news.  I got the courage to weigh myself this morning and I hadn’t gained back the weight I feared I had–still at 201.4 (Hey, that’s better than 203!).  Now the bad news. . .I went to my favorite breakfast place for lunch and had scrambled eggs and bacon (not too bad) and a waffle with peaches and whipped cream.  Now my stomach hurts!!  I really want to break the 200 lb. barrier, but I think I have a mental block about it.

First day on the buddyslim website.  Looking for a way to get and stay motivated.  Lost about 13 lbs. since April by cutting out sweets, wine, and limiting fats plus adding exercise.  Lost my motivation about 4 weeks ago.  Trying to get back on track.

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